I am going to be more creative.

I have reached a point in my life, where I really REALLY want to go out there and DO STUFF. After leaving university in May last year, I've been up and down, depressed at having no job, then happy because I come to terms with everything, then depressed again and worried that I've messed everything up - why else am I unemployed? I thought I was good at what I do. Then happy again... and so on, forever. I've now plateaued. I'm neutral. I'm not depressed because it's not my fault that I'm unemployed, I go to visit studios and they're not wanting to hire ANYONE, I did well at uni, I'm a nice person, so I can't do anything more than try to find work, which I am doing. And I'm not overly joyous, because I WANT to be working.

I want jobs, I want to work, I want to make people happy with my designs.

Two weeks ago I put a small amount of my Bigmouth Valentines Cards up for sale on etsy (click me). In those two weeks, I have had 541 viewings of my cards in my shop, and I have sold 11. Now, I know I'm not making waves and it's not especially ground breaking, but I'm really proud of myself, and I like being proud of myself, it's nice. As such, I have decided that I can make this shit work out for me. I can do ANYTHING I want.

I don't want to be one of those people at 40 who are depressed and miserable with their life because at 21 they rushed into any old job because they panicked about having no money, and 20 years later, they're still working in that office that they told themselves would only be for a year or two, until their "real career" worked out.

I'm not doing that. I refuse.

I want to design, make and sell things. I want to do graphic design for people, I want to do graphic design for myself, I want to be happy.

Earlier today, I decided to make an office. I moved into my fiancé's mum's house with him and his family after university, and they kindly allowed me to put all the stuff that wouldn't fit into Owain and my room into this room downstairs where Owain's drums are. I find it hard working in the bedroom, because I end up sitting on the bed and then being lazy.

I've sorted all my boxes and belongings out, organised it, and made enough room to have a small office in there. I'm going to use my little studio to do work.

This blog will now be used DAILY for me to show you, internet people, stuff that I find. I want to be more interested in the world, in design, in everything. I want to share things, see things, and design things for my shop. I am going to be more creative.



If anyone wants anything designing, I am here, I am ready, I am RARING TO GO, I am enthusiastic and I am awesome. I will charge fair, friendly rates, and I will make you happy.

I am going to start selling more fun stuff in my etsy shop, and I will keep you posted.

Much, much love, from Cat.